#SEMBILAN

Assalamualaikum and HI!

       Right now, I am done with my teories final exams! So, tinggal amali and get settled all the final projects and I'm done with school (unpermanently sebab I still nak further studies).

    KV or Kolej Vokasional. Hmmm. Why did I choose  these mad programming classes dekat KV daripada pure science stream yang aku dapat dekat SMK dulu.

   When people ask me "Belajar mana?" and of course aku akan jawab KV. They will like "ohhh. KV" and keep asking some silly klishe question. Padahal dalam  hati "Budak KV. Tak pandai budak ni. Mesty budak problematic sangat ni".

   I'm telling you right now okay? Kalau aku pilih untuk stay dekat SMK, obviously aku akan study hard untuk jadi seorang doktor. OBVIOUSLY. Tapi, ingat senang ke? Result confirm akan buruk dan aku pun akan sakit hati tengok result aku. Daripada aku sakit hati tengok result aku and aku akan buat parents aku sakit mata tengok result aku, lebih baik aku masuk KV.

  Hey! Result PMR aku tak teruk okay? I'm still doing good sebab aku bukan target sekolah untuk dapat 2A dan ke atas. And I got 4A which is I don't really expect that. Can you even imagine? So, I  have decided sacrifice a bit of my time and choose KV.

   To be honest, siapa tak sakit hati bila ada orang tanya parents kau "ehhh. Anak sambung mana?" and my parents would say KV. And you'll know apa pandangan orang kan about KV?

  If you want to know, I struggle a lot in KV just to score my pointer and graduate. Thats it! Ingat senag ke belajar dalam KV ni? Parents will spend loads of money dengan KV yang macam macam tukar sistem, modul etc. I struggle a lot!

 

#LAPAN

PROGRESS

Assalammualaikum ang Hi.

  We meet again in this entry and as usual I don't know what to write or what things that I should talk about etc. Okay. I'll just be random and yeah.

  So, its already September and that means, I'll have about 2 months before I leave for my practical. I was excited and nervous and ohh. You can feel me, kan?

  Hey, can I ask you something? How will life would be if kita takda feeling. Tak faham? Maksudnya, apa je yang jadi, we don't even want to care. We don't feel nervous, we don't feel scared and so on. Why? Why do you have to be that way? I mean, tak bosan ke hidup kau?

  We got variety of people in this world. I told you that we have to learn people to understand them. Kalau kita tak faham karakter diaorang, how are we going to tolerate with them? Sampai bila asyik nak kawan atau bergaul atau get involved dengan orang spesen je dengan kita, betul? If we had to fake or pretend, then do it. Lama-lama kita akan faham. What benefits did you get from being heartless? Even sometimes, it hurts you when you get to know slowly about other people character tapi its good rather than being heartless. Thats what we call as learning, right?

*Okay. I don't know either you can understand this. KAHKAH*

  Okay. So recently, aku ada pergi satu event ni dekat Serdang. It was called as Light Sensation. Bunga rose LED dekat dalam garden. Sangat cantik, sangat romantik, sangat cool. Seriously. I was amaze with it. I'm in love. Hahaha. For those who love photography or vlog like me, that place was legitly awesome.

  Cantik kan? I told you it was beautiful tapi kalau nak ambik gambar selfie or jadi tukang ambik gambar orang, you have to use extra lighting. How? Phone ada torchlight kan? So, use that torchlight and set lah the placement of the lighting.

*baru perasan entry atas bahasa inggeris. Hahahaha*

Till then.

#TUJUH

CONFIDENCE

   Assalamualaikum gals! So, we meet again in this entry. So, I'm quite lazy too write a very long mukadimah for these very short entry. Lets just be straight.

   Confidence. Keyakinan diri. In my opinion based on my past experience, confidence is one of a character that you need to have inside you. Kalau takda keyakinan diri, memnag tak berjalan lah hidup kauorang, kan? Memang tak maju lah hidup kauorang and the worst part is, your life will be legitly boring!

Ada dua jenis manusia dalam skop confident ni.

Satu : Yang takda keyakinan diri.

Dua : Yang terlebih keyakinan diri.

  Yang jenis pertama ni. I've been through that situation. ALWAYS. Its is freaking hard and sometimes, you will feel like "let me die". I feel that. Cause I've been through that situation before. My worst ever. Macam mana? One of the factor is, people around you. Bayangkan, bila kau nak try something new, you want to learn something new, kau dah macam "Okay. I can do this. Everyone can do this", pastu tiba tiba ada orang jerit or perli or "Ehh! Salah lah. Dah. Kau tak payah buat" without even trying. Bila kau buat jugak, diaorang akan perhatikan kau macam "aduh! lambatkan kerja lah.". And trust me, kau memang tak suka tengok muka orang macam tu. Kau akan giveup and "okay. I'm done. I'm not good at anything". That is what happening on me.

     To those people who love to make others confident fade away, please stop. You're not the only one who is good at everything. Give them some space and time to fix theirself in. Kau tak mampu nak buat semua tu sorang sorang. Bila dah tak larat, kau marah orang tu as if like orang tu tak pernah ambik inisiatif langsung nak membantu. Stop being such a person. Its hard. Really. Just imagine if you in their shoes. Imagine if thats the only thing that they like and they believe they can do.

      And for those who are about to lose their confident, get up! You're not getting any benefits on it. Biar lah kita gemuk, pendek, tak cantik, gigi berterabur, banyak bulu roma etc, just be yourself. Try to make a change. Try to prove that you can. Be much better than them. Pedulikan apa yang orang nak cakap. Its all about you. Yourself. Trust yourself. Have faith on it.

     Faham? Aku pernah rasa semua tu and I'm not saying that my confident level are good now. No! Aku still belajar percayakan diri sendir. I tried everything! Just, keep trying. Never scared of falling down and never get tired to get up again and again.

Till then.

#ENAM

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

   Assalammualaikum! Hi! Its been too long I didn't post any updates here. Dari sebelum puasa sampai lah dah nak habis raya. Baru update. If you ask me why I haven't update for so long. The answer is too simple and too easy. BUSY. Legitly, I'm so freaking busy. I don't want to tell you what I'm busy with. Cause its just the same thing. Its a normal last year student things. So, I bet you can guess it, kan?

  Ohh. Syawal belum habis. Jadi, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Raya tahun ni, raya tahun kedua without Cikwan. And obviously, it is so lain. The feelings is still the same. You know how it feels when you celebrating something without your love one kan?

Okay! Stop with all the sadness. Life must go on kan?

   So, currently, I've just finished a shortfilm shooting for MBI and MBM shortfilm competition and it was my first attemp on writing scripts. Sangat lah awkward dan sangat lah... Ntah? Hahahahahha.

   I have to fully do the scripts in English and also I have to act. Alaa. Supporting role je. But its quite find and baru lah aku faham penatnya shooting film! Baru 10 minit punya film. Yang 2 jam punya? Drama yang 100 episod tu? I can feel it dohh. Tapi, I really enjoyed and nak join lagi. KAHKAH

   And, aku jugak tengah bertungkus lumus fikir macam mana nak start buat codings untuk final project. I don't know how to start, where to start and so on. Nak buat sendiri, memang ada potensi besar untuk membesarkan eyebag ni hah. So, I've decided to just use template tapi di customize kan sikit so that if anything, aku boleh jawab.

  Ohh. And last semester subject get tougher than before. Lots of things kena hafal, hafal dan hafal lagi. Haihhh. Sangat penat. But its okay. For grades and life, I'll face it.

So, tu je kot? Hahahaha.

Till then!

#LIMA

WELCOME MAY

    Hello May! May you be a very good month for me and others cause may is an exam month!

   I'm going through my second last final sem exam. Tinggal satu sem je lagi, then kita hoorayy! Gila tak sabar nak graduate sebab dah sangat tak larat nak study coding banyak banyak.

 Well, its kindda good thing actually aku ambik course yang aku tengah struggle sekarang. Sebab tak ramai orang yang ambik and yeah. Of couse i'm feeling lucky.

 And, this MAY, I am going to turn up 19 OFFICIALLY. Welcome to ninteen Wan Nur. You're in the age of being a teen(last year. Lepastu, ada angka 2 kat umur kau). Haihhh. So excited to be 19 and I don't even know why or how to speak out the reason. I'm just so excited.

  Maybe sebab, aku akan counting years nak kerja, nak settlekan semua angan angan bulan bintang aku tu. Maybe lah. Sebab dah ada duit sendiri, boleh fikir semua sendiri without menyusahkan your parents. Maybe sebab tu lah kot?

  Anyway, Happy Birthday in advance dearself. Be sweet always. Be happy. Be cheerful. Be wonderful. Be amazing. Be the best for in your photography and make sure to gain at least 80% of your goals sweetie.

  And of course, goodluck in exam gals! Jawab leklok. Study betul betul walaupun last minute (Gang last minute. Fuhh! *highfive*) May everything gonna be okay, okay?

Till then!

#EMPAT

TAK BOLEH CHILL

      Hey. I just drop by here. I'm fucking stress with all of these system projects. With these lappy software problems, with all of these system fuction  yang tak jadi. Arrghhhh! Stress gila seh.

    Tak cukup dengan stress pasal final project ni, come out satu lagi masalah which is so remeh but certain people make it looks like masalah yang sangat besar.

   Ohh well. To "these" people,  I just want to say thank you for all of your word towards all people. Why should I care about you? Why should I jaga your perasaan? You don't even mind mine. So what? Expecting you're the only one who have that sad, anger feeling? Well, you can get lost of it.

   Kau boleh bawa semua orang pergi jauh dari aku dengan muka simpati kau .

   Kau boleh bawa semua orang pergi jauh dari aku dengan perkataan tipu yang keluar dari mulut kau.

I don't mind. Lets see for how long that you can stay. I won't care any about you.

You have your own life. I have my own life. They have their own life. So, why are you bothering their life? Why are you bothering my life? Messing up my head with all your doings lah shit?

You talk like you know me well. VERY WELL. Lepastu, kau cerita dekat semua? Huh? Apa masalah kau ni? You're not even been in my shoes.

Ohh well. Like I said earlier. I don't care now. Just keep on doing apa yang kau buat sekarang. Keep on. I won't mind. I have better much work to do dari serabutkan kepala dengan fikir masalah kau je.

I was there when you at your worst. I was there when you feel lost. I was there when you're nothing.. Apa yang kau buat dekat aku sekarang?

#TIGA

PERFECTION

    Hi everyone! Its kindda long time since I've updated entry here. I'm really sorry. I was quite busy with problems and assignments (normal student life kan?).

   So, today. Perfection. Sempurna. Well, recently, I've been walking to my mom new workplace kat Sentul. And nak pergi situ, memang kena jalan kaki (tak jauh pun. So, jangan membazir). As I was walking on the side road, aku lalu dekat satu sekolah agama ni. Kids are everywhere. Baru balik sekolah kan? Aku baru perasan, ada seorang lelaki ni. Well said, he was not perfect like us. But, he try his best to please those kids. He was nice. Dia jaga lalu lintas kat depan sekolah tu. Bila that road dah clear, dia suruh budak tu lintas (with bahasa isyarat). Bila dah takda budak yang nak lintas, that man pun gurau dengan those kid which is so nice.

   Another incident is, I was at these one food place dekat KL Sentral. There was a women yang buat with her small daughter. Mula mula tak perasan. Bila nak basuh tangan tu, baru nampak yang diaorang tengah pegang food yang diaorang order untuk duduk. Nasib baik, akak yang ambik order diaorang tu baik hati and have help theM. I was about to cry looking at them. Makan bubur. That women tersenyum-senyum. Mungkin gembira sebab dia dengan anak dia.

    Okay gals. From these, kita boleh conclude and I think, kauorang pun boleh fikir. Kekurangan kita, pelengkap kelebihan orang lain, betul? Macam positif negatif. Macam kebaikan dan keburukan. Advantage and disadvantage. Saling melengkapi.

    Everyone must have their own kekurangan. EVERYONE. Sedar dengan tak sedar je. So, we as a human being should respect others. Sebab, kita bukan selalu dekat atas kan? Bila kita jatuh, maybe orang orang yang "imperfect" tu yang akan tolong kita. They have a very noble heart.

      It was a good incident for me. I learn from that. Jangan pandang rendah dekat orang. Jangan taksub dengan orang. Setakat puji biasa tu boleh lah. Self motivate kan? Please love yourself. Because you're fine just the way you are. Kita tak boleh buat A, kita boleh buat B. Orang lain boleh buat A, tapi tak boleh buat B. Faham?

Till then